Tim and Olive's Blog
- UPROOTING THE BAOBABSUPROOTING THE BAOBABS
In the children’s book “The Little Prince,” there is a scene where the rose asks the prince why he so carefully combs through the soil each day, diligently pulling up the baobab sprouts. The prince answers that baobab trees, if left to their own, will grow to be one of the biggest trees in the world. In order to protect the rose and keep their little planet alive, he cannot afford to let a baobab tree take root; otherwise it would consume their space and they would die.
Similarly, I’ve been finding it absolutely necessary to comb through the soil of my heart each day looking for any hints of “baobabs.” Things like pride, envy and discontentment seem to lurk around constantly, waiting for me to let my guard down, waiting for the opportunity to take root. They just don’t go away.
Thankfully, my faith is kept not by my own efforts, but by the grace of the One who saved me.
Avoid every kind of evil.
May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it.
~1 Thessalonians 5:22-24~ - THE ONE WHO IS
THE ONE WHO IS
Recently, I’ve been going through a devotional book called “Praying the Names of God” by Ann Spangler. It goes through 26 names of God in the Old Testament in chronological order of how God reveals Himself to us, one name per week. The first one is ELOHIM – God the Creator.
It’s funny how God seems to orchestrate everything in life to go with a certain “message of the moment” though. The week I was learning about God as my creator, everything that came up seemed to remind me of it. And the whole week, I couldn’t figure out why He wanted me to understand Him as Creator so much. At the end of the week, at a prayer time, I was feeling particularly frustrated at my apparent slow rate of growth.
God, why do you even care that I grow? Why are you so passionate about my development anyway? It’s tiring, painful and what benefit does it give you?
Suddenly, I saw it: God as the Creator, delighting in His masterpiece(!) Just as I find joy and delight in drawing something and tweaking this part and changing that part, my God delights in the process of making me more like what He envisions me to be. Finally, I realized why God was trying to pound into my hard head the fact that He is the Creator. He IS the Creator. Not He was. Just because He created at the beginning, doesn’t mean He stopped creating. God is still alive and at work, making new creations of all of us, redeeming the world one person at a time. What hope!
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
~ 2 Corinthians 5:17~ - LATE BLOOMER
LATE BLOOMER
“this one’s not opening!” my roommate was looking at one of the two lilies i bought two days before. (i had decided i needed encouragment to stay in my house to unpack.) she held up the one she was looking at: its petals were still furled, their tips barely beginning to unfold. in contrast, the other one that i bought at the same time was in full bloom – pink petals radiating out, filling the room with fragrance. it was hard not to doubt my choice in flower choosing – did i buy a dud?
fast forward two days: my roommate walks out of her room and does a double take. “woah! it opened! and it’s so big!” i beam. yep. it opened. and it’s just as – if not more – beautiful as the first one.
then, a quiet voice pipes up in my heart, you are this second lily. don’t be discouraged, your time will come. just when i’m tempted to lament the slowness of my growth, God shows up and encourages me.
how sweet it is to be loved by You.
But these things I plan won’t happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, wait patiently, for it will surely take place. It will not be delayed.
~Habakkuk 2:3~ - SOMETIMES LOVE
SOMETIMES LOVE
Sometimes love has to drive a nail into His own hands, into His own hands.
~from a song i heard a number of years agolove is about sacrifice. i can’t say i’ve mastered it. but i think i’m beginning to understand.
Lord, help me love as You love. Help me give as you give and not fall into bitterness or resentment.
This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.
~1 John 3:16~ - PERSPECTIVE
PERSPECTIVE
Two tidbits of perspective today:
1. There is no power shortage in the world. According to my prof, if we could harness all the electricity that comes down to us as lighting, we would have enough electricity for the whole world and more to spare. The problem is not that we have a lack of electricity. The problem is a lack of technology. The same goes for our spiritual life. Those who have Christ also have the incomparable power that Paul can only compare to the power that raised Christ to life from the dead. (Did you get that irony? It’s incomparable but he still tries to compare it!) Our problem is not power shortage. It’s technology shortage – otherwise known as a shortage of faith.
2. I’m more idealistic than I’d like to be. Talking to a counsellor today about my recent battles of the mind, she encouraged me by pretty much saying that there will be more to come. Part of me does not want to accept that as the truth. I wish I could fight the battle once and be done with it. But the truth is that following Christ will mean persecution from the enemy. So I have no option but to cling to the greater truth: That God is with me and that His grace is sufficient.
I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength, which he exerted in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every title that can be given, not only in the present age but also in the one to come.
~Ephesians 1:18-21~ - WHERE’S OLIVE?
WHERE’S OLIVE?
If anyone’s still checking on this blog, I’ll be amazed. Anyway, for those faithful friends out there, I thought I’d break the silence while I have the time to write. (actually, I should be reading my textbook for the course I’m taking in a week… heh heh).
So what insights have I had in the last half a year? Too many to list. But what I will share is my experiences in the last month of the semester that just passed.
Growing up, I didn’t have many problems with self-image and self-esteem. I always felt the security of being loved (by God’s grace) and I didn’t really understand it when those around me went through the turmoil of the teen years. That “perfect” world (in my mind at least) completely shattered in the month of December.
For about a month and a half, I battled a constant barrage of lies. Lies such as “nobody likes you,” “you’re boring,” “no one cares,” and “no one understands.” And it wasn’t a once in a while thing, it was a daily assault on my mind. I knew that they were lies, but I felt like I was drowning. There came a point when I even told God that I was having trouble believing that He loved me. The only weapons I had were the truth of the Word and the prayers of the saints. I found myself fighting for my faith – fighting to choose to believe in who God said I was, fighting to silence the accusations and discouraging words.
In the midst of the darkness, I clung to this one sentence referring to Psalm 23’s valley of the shadow of death: The soil is richest in a valley; and there is no shadow unless there is light. These last three weeks, my parents came to visit me and somehow, God used them to re-ground me in His love. I don’t know if I’m completely through the valley yet, but it seems like the ground is sloping upward. Praise God!
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me.
~Psalm 23:4~ - MYSTERY
MYSTERY
i’ve been reflecting on Moses and his burning bush encounter the past couple days. the first thing that i realized is Moses’ response to God. God calls him out of this bush that’s on fire and Moses says “Here I am.” now obviously from what follows, Moses has not really met God yet because God has to explain to him who He is. so what intrigues me is the fact that the first words out of Moses’ mouth are not “Who are you? And what do you want?”. because if i were him, that’s what i would say. so it seems that Moses, over the many years of refinement in the wilderness tending sheep, has become sure of who he is and comfortable with his identity. he hears his name and he owns up to being just who he is. in comparison, i’m still very unsure of myself and as a result, i’m quite defensive. this is definitely an area i want to grow in.
another thing i noticed before is that i’m very much like Moses, always giving excuses for why i don’t think i’m able to do what God has asked me to do. what i haven’t really looked at is God’s responses to his objections.
over and over again, Moses tells God that he can’t do it. and over and over again, God tells Moses he’s being sent and things are going to be ok. finally, God’s “anger burns” against Moses. and then what? God says “ok, punk. your chances are up. i’m giving this privilege of working with me to someone else”? not exactly. God still insists that Moses take this call. but He sends Aaron to go with him. i suspect though, that because God sent Aaron out of anger toward Moses, the disagreements and strife that come with interpersonal relationships were an avoidable consequence if only Moses had obeyed the first time he was asked.
which leads me to think, God has called me to follow Him and i frequently whine and ask Him to send me a companion. i wonder if that’s the wisest thing to ask for? ;p
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
~Lamentations 3:22-23~ - WHEN GOD IS ENOUGH
WHEN GOD IS ENOUGH
a couple days ago, i had lunch with one of my friends here and caught up on the summer. “Lydia” told me a story of someone she met in one of the farm towns who impacted her and encouraged her heart.
this girl is only twelve years old but she’s a deaf-mute. the first time Lydia met her, she felt a burden to care for her but she didn’t know how to communicate with her. then, she learned that this girl was going to school to learn how to read and write. so, taking out a pen and paper, Lydia asked her whether she knew that Jesus loves her. she nodded her head, yes. again, Lydia asked her whether she knew the local believers love her. she nodded again, yes.
as the people in the fellowship began to pray, this girl seemed to pray along with them. even though she could not hear anything that was going on and she could not speak, she could say one word: Amen. and she spoke it loud and clear whenever a brother or sister concluded his or her prayer! right in time with the rest of the people. Lydia was able to visit this girl a second time during the summer and the day before she went, she called their house to let them know. the day of, the girl got up bright and early and waited for the whole day for Lydia to arrive. and before Lydia even got to the door, her young friend ran and gave her a huge hug.
with tears in her eyes, Lydia reflected on the experience and shared with me how she realized that many of us busy ourselves with “Kingdom work”, doing what we think God wants us to do. meanwhile, in the life of this young girl, simply living in God’s love was enough. what a truth. though we may be called to serve in various capacities, the bottom line is that it’s simply about living in God’s love.
what a reminder. what a perspective check!
You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not gorwn weary. Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love.
~Revelation 2:3-4~ - WHY
WHY
this morning, i woke up asking myself, “why am i doing this again? why am i packing my bags and moving away from all i’ve grown up with only to go to a place that makes me uncomfortable, a place so foreign to what i’m used to? why am i tearing my heart to pieces? what is it that drives me to go through this again?”
and in the stillness came the words For Christ’s love compels us… just how does this love compel me? surely it is not only a force from behind me – that as i gaze at the cross of Christ, i recognize all that He’s done for me and so, out of gratitude i go in obedience. that seems so… almost like a business transaction.
looking deeper, i realize the compelling force of Christ’s love is what lays ahead. that Christ stands in front of me, offering me hope and peace and a depth of love i have yet to fully know. and THAT is what compels me. like a child learning to walk, i see the Father beckoning me, arms open wide as i totter in my little steps of faith, always moving forward however hesitantly. why? because i know there’s a heart of Love before me. and i know He’s there, waiting to enfold me in the warmest embrace i’ve ever known.
If we are out of our mind, it is for the sake of God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you. For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.
~1 Corinthians 5:13-15~ - THANK GOD FOR DIRTY DISHES
THANK GOD FOR DIRTY DISHES
Thank God for dirty dishes
They have a tale to tell
While other folks go hungry
We do so very well
With home and health and happiness
We shouldn’t want to fuss
For by this stack of evidence
God’s very good to us!
–seen at a friend’s houseSpeak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.
~Ephesians 5:19-20~