GOODNESS

why do i doubt God? He has shown His faithfulness and carried me through yet again. and now i can go home and focus my energies on the new task at hand: TC.

praise God! because He Is.

lates y’alls. i’m off till friday.

TICK, TICK, TICK…

excuse me while i breathe deeply and flop into the arms of my heavenly Father. let me rest, let me sleep. let my heart be still and know that He is God. then let me surely and steadily complete each task. let me not look behind or ahead. let me focus on what is at hand. and through it all, let my heart be thankful. let each moment sing of His glory. let no complaints issue from this heart. let it remain pure, blameless and holy.

let all this come to pass. i will get there.

In His time, in His time,
He makes all things beautiful in His time
Lord please show me everyday
As You’re teaching me Your way
That You do just what You say,
In Your time.

COINCIDENCE?

February 5, 2003: york ccf goes to ICC soup kitchen. ols talks to a man named peter. finds out he’s having a hard time finding a place to live. hears about his current mice-infested living conditions. decides to put peter on prayer list to ask God to help him find a place.

February 19, 2003: ols visits ICC sans ccf. peter is still looking for a place. he seems more agitated and burdened than the last time. ols decides to keep praying.

March 5, 2003: york ccf goes to ICC soup kitchen again. ols talks to peter. peter says he found a place that’s everything he wanted and more. when did he find it? February 20, 2003.

coincidence? i think not.

we’re dealing with Higher Powers here, people.

three cheers for God?! AMEN!

WIND BENEATH MY WINGS

did i ever tell you you’re my hero?
…i could fly higher than an eagle
‘cuz you are the wind beneath my wings

walking back to my res at 1 or 2am has allowed me to catch a glimpse of what really goes on in the university when everyone’s gone. there’s an army of people who clean the school every night into the wee hours of the morning. they sweep up the garbage, clear the garbage cans, clean the bathrooms and they even have a zambonie-like machine that polishes up the floors. these are the behind-the-scenes people. they rarely get credit (if any at all) yet they’re so vital to the success of the school.

thinking about my life, i realize i have plenty of those people, too. every little project i take on, every ministry i invest in, i only accomplish it with the support of numerous people. take chairing my school fellowship, for example. in times like these, when i’m swamped with schoolwork, the committee members step up and see that things get done. my parents graciously open up our house for planning meetings. and my friends at church don’t take offense when i hardly show my face there.

there’s a saying that no man is an island. and i guess i’m beginning to learn that truth. everything i do has an effect on the people around me, whether i’m aware of it or not. that’s a pretty crazy thought.

TESTIFY

[v. intr.] To make a statement based on personal knowledge in support of an asserted fact; bear witness.

while i was giving my testimony to the tc senior worship team yesterday, i came to the realization that despite being stretched and pushed to the limits, i’m actually enjoying my life(!). it’s as if, on the surface, i have much to do – too much, for my liking – but underneath, there’s this current of joy and power that comes from knowing that i am walking with God. (note: the way i see myself at this moment, i am not walking my own path, i have found where God is walking and i’ve just joined Him in His work – altho, sometimes, i know i go on my own and He walks with me but that’s not the case this time.) i know this excitement is given to me by the grace of God, but i also know that i had to let go of my own inhibitions and release my tight grasp of my own life before i could experience this. letting God lead is risky and scary. and to the world, it doesn’t make sense. but wow, is it ever incredible to live in His reality.

anywho, i’m completely thankful for where i’m at this moment, ‘cuz i know it’s a rollercoaster ride and the next turn could be downward.

thanks, for this gift, Daddy. :>

UNREASONABLE

When we do anything from a sense of duty, we can back it up by argument; when we do anything in obedience to the Lord, there is no argument possible; that is why a saint can be easily ridiculed.
–Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest

how else do you explain witnessing to a stranger who asks for help over icq at 3 in the morning?

GRATITUDE

i know this isn’t the first time i’ve used this as a blog title. but this is the title to the song by Nichole Nordeman. i think the lyrics are very fitting to our situation today.

Send some rain, would You send some rain?
‘Cause the earth is dry and needs to drink again
And the sun is high and we are sinking in the shade
Would You send a cloud, thunder long and loud?
Let the sky grow black and send some mercy down
Surely You can see that we are thirsty and afraid
But maybe not, not today
Maybe You’ll provide in other ways
And if that’s the case…

But Jesus, would You please…