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GOD

a beautiful thing about God is that without fail, He works the most when we are at our weakest. our worship team this morning was put together last sunday. i’d previously worked with two out of the three members and the third member was new to our church. during rehearsal on friday, things sounded not quite together. and this morning, when we started practicing, we were totally not together. each person was doing his/her own thing. as the leader, i didn’t know how i would be in a worshipful spirit, let alone engage the congregation in worship. after lifting everything up in prayer and confessing to God that He alone had to lead our worship, i still felt a bit uneasy. but God fully answered by allowing His presence to be felt during our service. one more item to add to God’s faithfulness list. :>

now to see how He will show Himself at York this year…

IF I WERE AN ANIMAL…

while describing myself to one of my new suitemates, i realized that my description could very well fit that of a tropical fruit bat:

a) i love warm places. my ideal temperature range is 28-32 degrees celsius.
b) i love fruit. i could eat it all day. :p
c) i’m pretty much blind. my prescription is so high, it’s embarassing.

so there u have it. three major similarities between myself an a tropical fruit bat. the only thing is, i don’t like hanging upside down. ;p

anyway, it’s been a pretty down week for me. being in a new res, not knowing anyone, and not being a heavy party-goer, it’s been quite lonely. spiritually, it’s thrown me off a little. i guess i’ve been struggling against self-pity to look beyond myself and find the heart to care for the few strangers around me. it also feels as if i’m in a place where God is silent, but i still know He’s there. i am more aware of my weakness than ever, but i’m also more aware of being held and surrounded by the prayers of all my saint-friends. this is a new place for me.

boring is definitely not a word to be used in this walk with Jesus.

FROSH – TAKE 2

*sigh* i never thought moving residences would feel so weird. i didn’t realize how many friends i made in two years. anyway, i’m settled in now and i finally got my internet working in my room so i can finally update this page. it’s taking me much longer than i want to, though, ‘cuz Flo93 is here on campus playing something in the courtyard and the bass beats are incessant! ahhh, frosh week…

…boom boom boom… boom boom boom… arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anywho, i went to visit my uncle’s grave today. it’s been almost two years since he died. standing under the blue sky, embraced by sunshine, listening to the windchimes, i felt this serene peace as i watered the flowers at his headstone. i realized today that with all my friends who know Christ, even if i never see them again in this life, i still have eternity to spend with them. like, wow. because of Christ, not only are we restored back to God (!), we have forever to enjoy each other’s company.

that’s my encouraging thought for the day. :>

keep praying for my witness on campus. this is a crooked and depraved generation, indeed.

…signing off to the tunes of “I will survive”… yes, i will survive!

UNFATHOMABLE

eternity and a day would not be enough time for me to understand God’s love. that a self-sufficient God – one who did not need anything outside of himself – would create, release and redeem a bunch of creatures who were destructive, rebellious, and faithless. and to go to all these lengths so that these creatures could spend the rest of time with Him! it is only by the sweet grace of God that we are loved.

[note: correction to yesterday’s post – Paul did not write the book of Hebrews. it was not written in his style. scholars suggest it was either written by Barnabas or Apollos.]

HEBREWS 11

the faith hall of fame. on the car ride home from St. Jacobs today, i had this urge to flip open to Hebrews. i intended to read chapter 10, but i ended up reading till chapter 12. one thought caught me in particular. after listing all the heros of the ages, paul writes,

God didn’t give these people what they were promised! yet they still had faith. moreover, God didn’t give these people what they were promised because He was waiting for us???!!! it’s like, we’re in this race where everyone who finishes gets a prize. but no one gets a prize until everyone finishes. so the people who finish early stand by the sidelines and cheer the rest of the runners on. and when the last person crosses the line, the party lasts forever. glorious. just glorious. no wonder the author goes on to write,

BEING REAL

we were discussing the pros and cons of having multiple circles of friends. how it’s good because a large network allows you to connect people to the help they need. but also how it’s tough because it’s hard to keep yourself transparent in all circumstances. my friend’s comment got me thinking about my own friends and acquaintances. if a classmate were to come hang out with me at fellowship, would they see the same person? if my christian friends were to drop in on me at work, would they recognize me? if my parents stayed with me in res…? i guess it all comes back to living Christ 24/7 and being acutely aware of it. or is it possible to be in such a habit of living Christ that one does not have to stop and evaluate anymore? hmm…

on a lighter note, i went to send my hair off yesterday. fourteen inches of black, braided hair. since the office is in florida, i had to declare what was inside the package. so, yeah, the customs label had “contents: hair”. and it was marked as a gift. :p i can only hope that the customs inspector doesn’t pass out. :)

WIND BENEATH MY WINGS

i don’t know how many people prayed for me yesterday but i know someone was. it was weird. the dark cloud that was over me when i woke up in the morning slowly lifted as the day went on. it dawned on me in the afternoon that the emotional darkness was perhaps a part of the spiritual battle we’re fighting. i saw my naivete in thinking that it would be smooth sailing – especially in the face of chairing our ccf and running investigative bible studies in res. so thanks to all who prayed for me. the battle’s just beginning…