Since making it public, our inboxes and T’s facebook page have been buzzing with activity. The #1 response has been “Congratulations!”
I commented to a friend the other day that it felt a little puzzling to me to be congratulated for getting pregnant. It felt somewhat akin to being congratulated for winning the lottery. After all, I didn’t actually make the baby’s life begin – I only helped provide a suitable environment for it to happen. And I don’t have any control over how well the baby grows either. My friend responded by saying that I welcomed this new life, and that was worth congratulating me for.
I’ve been reflecting a bit on the irreversibility of it all. I had prayed for this pregnancy, but now that it has happened, I sometimes feel alarmed about what I’ve really asked for! It’s unlike any other decision I’ve made in life because carrying this baby has meant that I have had to change already and there’s no undoing it. And this new person will impact me more than I can ever guess. It’s sobering to realize that my life is forever changed by the answering of this one prayer.
Last weekend T and I watched the musical, “Wicked,” and this one song has been with us all week. It’s called “For Good” and it speaks to many different relationships in our lives. But as I think about the lyrics, there are certainly parts that express how I feel about this lemon-sized little life within me. I hope you enjoy the song as much as we do: