Tim: I think you need some inspiration, Olive. To help you dream again.
Me: Yeah… I dunno. I think I’m afraid to dream. Because I feel like all my past dreams have been laid aside. Like what’s the point of dreaming yet another dream if it doesn’t come to fruition?
Tim: So do you feel like you’ve had a choice in it, or that God has taken your dreams away?
Me: Well, I feel like I’ve been convinced by God of a dream and then He’s presented a better choice, so I’ve chosen to go with that. It’s weird I know, like I’m grieving the loss of something even though what I have is better.
[More dialogue. Tears.]Me: You know, I feel like somehow because these dreams haven’t come true, I’ve failed God. Like I’ve left some unfinished task on the to-do list.
Tim: You see these dreams as a to-do list?!?!
Me: Yeah, I do. And I think, why go dream another dream when I have these half-started ones yet incomplete?
Tim: Well, you don’t seem to have a problem with leaving books unfinished. You’ve always got several on the go.
Me: Hmmm…
Tim: So maybe it’s the same with these dreams. You can have several pages read now and then you might come back to it later. God knows you have a high need for change, so He’s helping you meet that need.
Me: =)
~Ephesians 3:20-21~