Tim and Olive's Blog

POP QUIZ

If a sudden jar can cause me to speak an impatient, unloving word, then I know nothing of Calvary love. For a cupful of sweet water cannot spill even one drop of bitter water, however suddenly jolted.
~Amy Carmichael, If

My brothers, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.
~James 3:12~

5 REASONS WHY I’M THANKFUL FOR SARS

yes, i actually have found reasons to be thankful for that which is causing so much grief in our city and our world these days…

reason #1: it shows our human frailty. in this age where people are so confident in science and themselves, a disease like this is humbling and puts perspective back into who we are compared to God.

reason #2: it drives us to unite in prayer. stemming from the first reason, people all over the world have been gathering to pray for God’s mercy and intervention.

reason #3: it has raised awareness of sanitation. this is especially beneficial in China/HK where cleanliness was not a priority before. now people know how to wash their hands properly!

reason #4: it has redirected my mission trip. God has used it to take me to Japan, where i have to completely rely on Him!

reason #5: it makes me completely rely on God! from keeping me and my team healthy to helping us reach Japanese students, i have to give it all into His hands. and this lets me know Him deeper. :>

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
~1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 [italics mine]~

PARADOX

my prayer, a couple weeks ago, was that God would show me how i could crucify my pride. in that week, it seemed like every scripture i read talked about crucifying the old self so that the new self could have life in Christ. and with the Easter weekend, the topic was imprinted on my mind even further. but i did not know what crucifying the self looked like in real life. i asked God, what do i DO to crucify my sinful nature? how do i get rid of this pride that doesn’t seem to go away?

this morning, i realized i received my answer. it’s NOT what I DO, but rather what i LET GOD DO. one cannot crucify himself, he must be crucified by another. so my original question, while it seemed to be a humble request, was actually driven by pride! the answer was not within my power, but rather without. i cannot crucify my own sin, i must let God do it. in other words, the answer was HUMILITY – letting God break me and ever seeking to put His will before my own. in this new light, i gained a breakthrough in my own sensitivity to sin. i saw how often i put myself on high ground when i have no right to. and i have come to appreciate more of Christ’s actions and attitude as a model for my own. i’m so grateful we have a God who is patient enough to teach us step by step. i know this road is long but oh what joy it will be to face my Maker and present to Him a well-spent life for His glory!

Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.

Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus…
~Philippians 2:3-5~

COUNTDOWN

two weeks exactly until i turn 22. it seems both old and young at the same time. on one hand, 22 years is a considerable amount of time. i’ve taught and counselled so many “kids” that i feel like such a mother at times. on the other hand, 22 years is very short. i am only beginning to learn what it is to be an adult. i’m only beginning to see how little i understand about myself, the world and God.

thirteen days until i leave for missions. still don’t know where i’m going and who i’m going with. i don’t have airplane tickets, don’t know what to pack… don’t know much, really! but i do know that i’m walking with God and that’s enough for me.

lately, i’ve been finding new gems in the Word.

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
~Psalm 139:17-18~
what baffles me is that God would find so much to think about me! like, what is there to think about for so long? anyway, it amazes me that God would think of us so much.

second gem…

…because by one sacrifice he [Jesus] has made perfect forever those who are being made holy.
~Hebrews 10:14~
as believers, ones who have been redeemed by Christ’s blood, we are already considered perfect in God’s eyes. however, we are still in the process of becoming holy. so holiness and perfection are separate of each other… something to chew on.

All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
~Psalm 139:16~

REALIZATIONS

this is more of a Good Friday entry, but i think it applies to us every day.

i wrote this poem a number of years ago. i just found it again recently and this being Easter and all, I thought I’d share it.

Realizations

I was always told that You died with Your arms stretched out open wide…

But I realize that I just can’t believe that’s what really happened.

The nails pierced You where a network of nerves and blood vessels collected. You arms and hands must have been gripping intensly, reacting to the excruciating pain.

Pictures of Your death were always clean, tidy and presentable…

But I realize that I can’t believe that’s what it really looked like.

There must have been blood splattered everywhere on the nails, on the hammer, all over Your body, all over the soldiers and perhaps even on the spectators who came to watch You die. And all that blood would’ve collected dirt and dust along the way. You didn’t have a clean, white loincloth.

The cross decorating our church would have me think that the one You were nailed to was smooth, polished and beautiful…

But I realize that I can’t even imagine that that was the way it really was.

Your cross would have been rough and filthy. There would have been many splinters. You’d be in more pain that way because nobody treats “criminals” nicely.

These realizations mean nothing to me though. They are worthless until I realize what Your actions have been telling me…

And now, once again, I see the image of those two wooden beams and I finally hear Your quiet voice, piercing my heart:

“I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you…”

i want to learn to have the faith Jesus had when He gave His life completely into the hands of the Father. i want a faith that in the face of suffering, prays for nothing else but the glory of the Father.

Jesus called out with a loud voice, “Father, into your hands I commit my spirit.” When he had said this, he breathed his last.
~Luke 23:46~

WALKIN’ BY FAITH

I’m gonna walk by faith, not by sight
’cause I can’t see straight in the broad daylight.
I’m gonna walk by faith, not by fear
’cause I believe in the One who brought me here.

i was just talking to my mom about faith this afternoon when this song came on the radio. i have no clue who wrote it or sang it, but the words reflect my sentiments exactly.

something i’ve come to realize this year is that much of our sin comes from a lack of faith. pride comes from a lack of faith that God is more powerful than us. fear comes from a lack of faith that God is in control. doubt is from a lack of faith that God keeps His promises. conversely, when we come to God and kneel at the foot of the Cross, all the rest falls away and faith remains. faith is too precious to lose.

what started today’s conversation on faith was my mom’s comment about the way everything in the world is on such a negative bend recently – the war, SARS, the feeble economy, news of death, news of cancer… the list goes on – and how easy it is for people to give up on life in these times. my answer to her was that it’s exactly in these down times that the message of Jesus is more clearly needed. if anything, this Easter, we should celebrate with hearts that are more grateful than ever! we have an everlasting Hope, an unfading Light to walk in, an eternal Friend! and with this knowlege, we should share it all the more.

recently, my own faith has been tested. of the various reasons, the effect of SARS on my missions trip was one of the bigger ones. since the original target city is an affected city, things were really up in the air. my fundraising was going really well and God just didn’t seem to be putting a hold on the project so i’d tell anyone who asked that as far as i was concerned, i would still be going on the trip. i refused to let go of my faith that God could bring us through. of course, it figures that they had my email address wrong so i never got the updates until today! but i was right to believe. the project is still happening. and God might be taking us somewhere other than our intended destination!

so yeah, PRAISE GOD for His almighty sovereignty! in the words of my pastor (who’s currently facing the fearful possibility of his own child having cancer): GOD is GOOD no matter what!!!

Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.
~John 20:29~

We live by faith, not by sight.
~2 Corinthians 5:7~

FREEDOM

i am still in shock that i made it through third year alive. what’s more, i am amazed at the countless blessings God has poured out on me these past eight months. i’m astounded at the sheer amount of undertakings i accomplished (school and otherwise) by His grace. if there’s one thing i learned this year (over and over again, might i add) it’s that God honours those who honour Him. in everything.

anywho, i read a really good quote today that i just had to share with the world. so here it is:

Teach us, Good Lord, to serve Thee as Thou deservest; to give and not to count the cost; to fight and not to heed the wounds; to toil and not to seek for rest; to labor and not to ask for any reward save that of knowing that we do Thy will. Through Jesus Christ our Lord.
— St. Ignatius of Loyola —

Whoever tries to keep his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life will preserve it.
~Luke 17:33~

PROCRASTINATIN

my blog is working again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :> hee hee… it’s been saying it’s publishing but not actually doing anything for the last long while… hence my extended absence. anywho, i checked today and it’s up and running again :> alas, i have an exam tomorrow so this has to be short.

missions trip is in T-22 days and God’s already taught me so much about what it means to live for Him! aaahhh! i have so much to write but i can’t write it all now! so i’ll leave u with the number one new lesson for me: going on a missions trip has shown me the way the body of Christ literally “sends” its members out into the world. the process of collecting the funds from my generous brothers and sisters, keeping all the records and writing thank-you cards has impressed on me the weight of what i am doing. when i pack my bags, i am packing with a while community behind me. when i step on the plane, i board with a group of people backing me. when i talk to the people there, i am being an ambassador of not only God Almighty, but my spiritual family around the world. it amazes me, humbles me and makes me just scared enough that i go running into God’s reassuring presence. :> anywhos, ’nuff not studying. i’ll have plenty of time to write more after tomorrow!!!

So in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others.
~Romans 12:5~

ON BRICKS AND DONKEYS

A young and successful executive was traveling down a

neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new

Jaguar. He was watching for kids darting out from

between parked cars and slowed down when he thought he

saw something.

As his car passed, no children appeared. Instead, a

brick smashed into the Jag’s side door! He slammed on

the brakes and drove the Jag back to the spot where

the brick had been thrown.

The angry driver then jumped out of the car,

grabbed

the nearest kid and pushed him up against a parked car

shouting, “What was that all about and who are you?

Just what the heck are

you doing? That’s a new car and

that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money.

Why did you do it?”

The young boy was apologetic. “Please, mister…

please, I’m sorry…I didn’t know what else to do,” He

pleaded. “I threw the brick because no one else

would stop…” With tears dripping down his face and

off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around

a parked car. “It’s my brother,” he said. “He rolled

off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can’t

lift him up.”

Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive,

“Would you please help me get him back into his

wheelchair? He’s hurt and he’s too heavy for me.”

Moved beyond words, the

driver tried to swallow the

rapidly swelling lump in his throat. He hurriedly

lifted the handicapped boy back into the wheelchair,

then took out his fancy handkerchief and dabbed at the

fresh scrapes and cuts. A quick look told him

everything was going to be okay.

“Thank you and may God bless you,” the

grateful child

told the stranger.

Too shook up for words, the man simply watched the boy

push his wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk

toward their home.

It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The

damage was very noticeable, but the driver never

bothered to repair the dented side door.

He kept the dent there to remind him

of this message

“Don’t go through life so fast that someone has to

throw a brick at you to get your attention!”

God whispers in our souls and

speaks to our hearts.

Sometimes when we don’t have time to listen, He has to

throw a brick at us.

It’s our choice.

Then the LORD opened the

donkey’s mouth, and she said to Balaam, “What have I done to you to make you

beat me these three times?”
Balaam answered the donkey, “You have made a

fool of me! If I had a sword in my hand, I would kill you right now.”
The

donkey said to Balaam, “Am I not your own donkey, which you have always ridden,

to this day? Have I been in the habit of doing this to you?”
“No,” he

said.
Then the LORD opened Balaam’s eyes, and he saw the angel of the LORD

standing in the road with his sword drawn. So he bowed low and fell facedown.

~Numbers 22:28-31~

NOTHING

too. much. work. no. time. to. breathe.
ok fine, no time to sleep, eat, cook, shower, think, write, keep up with the world. so what am i doing then? drafting!!!!!! it never ends.

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, [nor busyness nor lack of sleep], nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
~Romans 8:38-39 (italics mine)~